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13th March 2012     Wednesday

Im juz very pissed off all the sudden. Emm...why??? Actually just becoz a very very small matter which make me feel unfair and impatient. 

I was very tired today, i had a quick meal and hoped to lay on bed afterward. But, my mum was calling me to clean the dishes due to she want to watching the TV. I DON'T WANT...because supposed my brother to clean it since he was the last one to dine. Why i must waiting him until he finished the meal and clean for him?? What the helll..im not his maid. So, i asking my brother to clean it and he was telling me that he dont want becoz it was too many plates to wash. But my mum was pampering him and asked him to leave it. What the XXXX...i was really pissed on this. Fine, i go to wash the plates then from my little bit kindness. But i just feel unhappy with that...

Sometime, i know my mum want me to be good and manner girl and i admitted im really bad in temper or even worse..but i just cannot control myself. So...i just express my feeling here to make me feel better. It is work so far =) Previously, i always telling him about my feeling...but now...left the blog to becoming my soul mate. Anyway, it is quite fresh and interesting...i hope i will be use to it from now onwards...

Muacks...love u all ❤

My Operation Day

24th Feb 2012   Friday

On d way going Hospital (Smile)

Another operation for me...this is the 3rd times ady. Emm...nervous?? haha..i can surely tell u, u will definetely nervous no matter how many times u experienced before. LOL

This time my operation took about 4 hours plus, but feel much better as compare with the first time. Dunno why...maybe becoz of the lengzai doctor haha...(Just Kidding). It's quite scary when laying on the bed and waiting for anaesthesia. None one can understand my feeling beside me...i couldn't tell my parent and anyone else. This is how i getting stronger...

I don't feel pity on myself...i feel lucky sometime. At least i still can live like normal or even better. The first mindset after come out from surgery room is telling myself that must love myself more & more. Appreciate what i had now and love the people surround me...love the life...becoz it only ONCE. Dear friends...be stronger, everyone can do better and do love urself more. I Love U Guys =)

 Name Tag...haha

 After Surgey...cannot recover well have to relied on this

My First meal after surgery (the next day morning)...Im super hungry

 Thanks my dear colleagues for the gifts...i love u all :)

My H3aRt : 2012...

It's been really long time i didnt updated my blog. So sorry to the one who had followed my blog. So, let's has a simple summary about what i had up to lately. A new year is reached, im still working in a same company. For my study, now is the time to rush for the final project. I haven't decided what topic i should write yet and have no idea with how to do that as well. Actually, i feel quite helpless about this matter, but i know only myself can solve it.

Regard my relationship, im really failed again. I am over confident sometime and it caused to i lost him. I thought he wont leave me until i choose to leave him. But it was totally opposite with what i had thought. It happend too suddenly and i was confused.It's just like a joke to me...i hope it was too. However,it was truly happened.  I feel sorry to him actually, during the time with him i never treat him better. Indeed, i am over self-defence and selfishness. I don't want commit to a serious relationship with him, because i thought there has better. I never realized how much i like him and use to depend on him. Yes, i admitted im regret with what i had done to him but it was too late. He wont turn back again and i will not waiting at the same place too. I never know that, i could be so hurt and tears out when he confess to me that he love someone else.

"It's Okie"...I can handle it better.This is what i told myself when facing him...

My H3aRt : Thanks & Sorry...

10th April 2011 SUNDAY

Few month ago..there were lot of thing happened between me & my friends. I don't know is there any misunderstand or even someone purposely to did so. But there is lot of question mark in my heart. I very clear that , there is useless to talk abt this again...what past ady past & i don't wish to mentioned it repeating. Time to stop all the childish behavior.

First of all, i know u still following my blog & update with me. I want to apologized with what i had did to you before, even though i must deny that not all my fault but there sure must someone to sacrificed maybe. I really don't wish such kind of thing keep repeating & struggling each others. Because i know u still concern me...if u still sincere like before and forgive. I hope you understand, i am not pointing the fault to anyone...just i wish to let go. I should not too trust anyone & believe with what i heard from. I am fell into an INVISIBLE TRAP. I should not involved all the thing. Because everyone got their freedom to do whatever they want. Just like what u said...i got no right to judge u if i don't understand u well.

I am not regretted with what i had done before, at least i gained a lesson from this case. I know we won't good like before again...but i hope u can forgive & let go all the thing as well. Let's all the thing back to normal. Last, I hope you're happiness...and thank you.

My H3aRt : ♥♥♥

2nd April 2011 Saturday

Recently, i do try hard to make some changes in my life. However, till today i just found actually it was unchanged still. what happened is already happened, and time won't go backward. Life is hard to making changes isn't it?? Can anyone tell me the answer?? No doubt...I'm confusing.

The good way to comforting myself is "lying". That's what i realized. God...hv u be with me?? i am no that strong as what others think actually. I am just a simple girl even though i am acting stronger always. I need someone to hear me & understand me too. But till now no one can give me to rely beside my family. Independent is good...but too independent making me feel loneliness.

Heavy workload, non stop classes and hanging out...all the thing still can't satisfy myself still. Yeap...i should admit it...i am that useless & over emotion sometimes. God...can u hear me?? People told me when u lost something sure will gain something back. So, what i gain from the friendship i lost?? God will only know maybe...

Unforgettable February Life...

16th March 2011 Wednesday

It's been really long long long time i didn't updated my blog ady. Very 3asy...i am just kinda busy & LAZY haha >.<"!! Let has a summary about my recent life. Well, since last time i were declared all the thing in my blog. Finally i got a conclusion, and that's it i lost one of best friend. From tat case i did learned something. Ppl are always SELFISH. They know how to say how to pretend and even know how to blind, but just want to protect theirself. haha...sound kinda funny right? But that's fact and i were really tired to believe anyone again. Lastly, i choose to silent & leave it. I dun feel want to explain anything again...and it is useless & pointless. I did really fed up... and i apologized with what i had done wrong. Although it was quite emo when the time i spent at KL..but it was lot of fun still ^_^!! Especially those yummy foods, seriously i am weak on "Anti foods" ...haha but i did enjoy lot ^_^
Let share some pics here....cheers ^_^

This was my 1st meal after ended the meeting at Putrajaya ^^

Finally i went t-Bowl at Sungai Wang, there is really creative design...Love It^^

My laopo & 3e Tat...they are always funny haha ^^

The Next day i went to Sunway Pyramid & had our dinner @ Sushi King =)

No doubt i am promoting the Green Tea haha >.<" Does both of them look alike?? haha....

Went to my favorite place where @ Jln Ipoh to grabbed some dim sum as my supper ^^

Yumcha with all my dear friends at Steven Corner...Honey with M3. Thx q for sharing all ur thing to me...i will always by ur side whenever u need me ^^

Took brunch with Mr Bryan @ Georgetown..seriously i miss the Choc Soya T.T"

High T3a @ The Garden Cafe, seriously i love high tea muchie coz it was really relax.

Korean Food @ Desa Park City


Lastly, although is lot of sadness happened, but i will still looking forward till the day i really give up all the hopes in my lif3. I believe 3verything gonna be alright & Ok...That's how i comforting myself always. Stay strong...Cheers ^_^

★ 10.10.10...Ew3N's Big DAy ★

10.10.10 SUNDAY

ANother matter which i need to highlight during this month was my SISTA YI WEN get married la ^^!! She was the 1st to married among 5 of us. We knew each other since primary school until today. Was really happy that u had already found ur Mr Right & could married with him. Have nothing to give u...but juz like that song we sang for u...we're ur "嫁妆"...no matter where u be we will always by ur side when u need us.
SISTA FOREVER。。。

"Morning Highlight"

During Dinner...

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Here some their wedding 4tor which may share with u all ^^

虽然近几年我们姐妹之间都会有些误会与争执，但我希望有一天大家都能抛去过去的误会，回到和小学一样。在此祝福你在新的起跑点能一直幸福到永远。。。

❤ Grandma I Love You ❤

26th July 2010 MONDAY

Another thing which happened on the past few month was my lovely grandma passed away. Actually my grandma was suffered for her sick quite some time...we all knew that she was very suffered, but I still felt sad cause of her leaved. Everytime when i saw how painful was her, my heart would felt hurt too. I don't know is it her leaved was the best way to her...but i just hope she can be happy. Although i am not so closed with her, but i did remembered all the moment with her. You're deep in my heart ❤

Grandma...whenever & wherever u are, we all will still missing you.
"We Love You Forever & Rest In Peace"

"We Will Always Missing You"

"You're deep in our heart"

★ Cameron Trip ★

15 & 16 September 2010 Friday & Saturday

What a important day to me...have been waited for 3 month times, finally i could met up with my buddies ^_^. It actually planned for quite some time...end up we choose Cameron as our next trip...it was a gathering since all of us were separated to the different places after graduated T.T" ! It's great our friendship still that good like before ^_^!!
Group 3 spirit forever ^^

Time to stop mumbling here...Let's enjoy with the pictures ^_^

Our 1st Destination - Ipoh Again...visited our pretty mummy "Sze En" & Her Son...he look super cute rite^^?? I love him so much...haha

haha...This is MUST in our schedule...LOL bcoz i love this food so much...it's the Bun with the curry chicken inside...u can find it at Kampar, Ipoh. haha^^

At Night...we SING K at Ipoh Parade ^^

The 2nd day we departed to Cameron...we rent an apartment there...we just like the
BIG FAMILY ^^!!

Here's the gal gang...I Miss Dajie & Erjie all the time^^

After rest while, our tour guide "IVAN" brought us to the Strawberry Farm...Ready & Go ^_^

I Love This Feeling...juz like 5 princess inside the 4tor...woohooohoooo >.<"

haha...he look cute enuf?? Can i buy this strawberry back home?? Lolx hahaha......

One Family...Thx for the photographer...^^

Night...we had prepared for the steamboat & bbq ...look yummy rite?? haha bt in fact, the taste no that nice as we thought...haha LOL

Kazaf & Me Said : hey...tried eat...no worry...taste is good.

Jefei: Ohh plsss...plsss don't forced me...i don't want get the food poison...

Lol....hahahaha^^

Last day, before we bek to KL, we had went to Ivan's father shop to bought some souvenir ^_^ !!

I Love this 4tor much...bcoz i looked so "shine" in this pic haha...

To All My Dear Friends, I hope that u all wont forget we had a such good memories whenever & wherever u are^^!! You all are brighten my life always...

They're Kazaf, Zenten, Jim, Zhenyong, Aemes, Ivan, SinHoong, Fione, Yeetheng, Jefei, Moni & M3 ^^

Sorry & I Love You...

Friday 15 October 2010

Been really long time i never updated my blog. I miss the previous moment when i studied at KL. In fact, that's impossible the time can be reverse. It's doesn't matter, i always know that as a human we must looking forward always. At least, i had a valuable memories which others don't have...isn't it?? So, be positive...life still going ^^!!

I could not foresee abt my future and can't look at the back...so what about now?? Sighh...my life was suck when just back from KL. I have no much friends here, jobless, helpless...& hv to adapt an environment which i familiar but still felt strange. Is confuse with my thinking always actually >.<"!! Sometimes, i found me easy to lost control, especially my temper & emotion. I become more easy to get piss and even fed up. I always regret with what i had done and said. Especially towards my parent, i am very sorry to them because of my unreasonable bad temper & attitude. However, they will never blame on me and even give up on me. I really appreciated & thanks with what they had done to me. Lastly i want to say : ❤I Love You Daddy Mummy...Thanks for the everything.❤

★ MaLacca TRips ★

31th JAN & 1st FEB 2010 SUNDAY & MONDAY

又是另一次难忘的的旅程。。。这次我们大家选择了前往马六甲^^!!对于这个地方说真的我是去到怕了。。。但是和一群好朋友去的感觉真的很不同和棒^^!!策划许久的旅程终于在这一天出发了。。。感觉很期待也有点难过。期待的是又能和大家一同游玩，难过的是或许这会是我们最后一次的旅程。和以往一样，我们主要的活动还是注重在吃的方面，除了吃还是吃，但是这次马六甲吃得可真可怕。我想我们一帮人可能差不多吃了整村人的食量。。。哈哈^^!!有点夸张的说。。。=.="!!

说真的马六甲的天气是热得可怕，全身黏黏的感觉真的很不好，但是为了吃还是得忍下来。最糟糕的是第一天的旅程我尽然病倒了。喉聋是痛得可怕。。。真的很怕又需要打针>.<"!!真的很幸亏休息了一个晚上好了许多，第二天的我还是能和大家一起吃一起玩^^!! 哈哈．．．开心的说！

第一站：和记鸡饭

第二站：CENDOL

第三站: SATAY BABI

第四站：游河

第五站：NYONYA 餐

第六站：CAFE at JUGGLE STREET

第二天．．．第一站：点心

第二站：ASAM LAKSA & CENDOL

第四站：黄金海岸

第五站：包点

第六站：BANDING 海鲜大餐

这次的旅行对我们大家而言都充满了意义。四年多的友谊。。。从来都不
曾因为分开而疏远，反而因为分开而变得越来越坚固。虽然这次的旅行有点小小的遗憾，那就是我们几位好朋友不能参与，但是我们一路上都没忘记过你们^^!!这次的旅行希望不会是我们的最后一次，我会努力举办下一次的旅程。爱你们哦。。。我的朋友^^!!

They're SinHoong, Alvin, Kazaf, ZhenYong, WeeKeong, Yida, Aemes & Fione, YieYin, Moni, YeeTheng, Sinyee, YongYong, RuRu & M3^^!!

最后有一首歌要特别献给我所有最爱的朋友．．．希望你们能真正明白里面的意思^^!!