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13th March 2012     Wednesday

Im juz very pissed off all the sudden. Emm...why??? Actually just becoz a very very small matter which make me feel unfair and impatient. 

I was very tired today, i had a quick meal and hoped to lay on bed afterward. But, my mum was calling me to clean the dishes due to she want to watching the TV. I DON'T WANT...because supposed my brother to clean it since he was the last one to dine. Why i must waiting him until he finished the meal and clean for him?? What the helll..im not his maid. So, i asking my brother to clean it and he was telling me that he dont want becoz it was too many plates to wash. But my mum was pampering him and asked him to leave it. What the XXXX...i was really pissed on this. Fine, i go to wash the plates then from my little bit kindness. But i just feel unhappy with that...

Sometime, i know my mum want me to be good and manner girl and i admitted im really bad in temper or even worse..but i just cannot control myself. So...i just express my feeling here to make me feel better. It is work so far =) Previously, i always telling him about my feeling...but now...left the blog to becoming my soul mate. Anyway, it is quite fresh and interesting...i hope i will be use to it from now onwards...

Muacks...love u all ❤

My Operation Day

24th Feb 2012   Friday

On d way going Hospital (Smile)

Another operation for me...this is the 3rd times ady. Emm...nervous?? haha..i can surely tell u, u will definetely nervous no matter how many times u experienced before. LOL

This time my operation took about 4 hours plus, but feel much better as compare with the first time. Dunno why...maybe becoz of the lengzai doctor haha...(Just Kidding). It's quite scary when laying on the bed and waiting for anaesthesia. None one can understand my feeling beside me...i couldn't tell my parent and anyone else. This is how i getting stronger...

I don't feel pity on myself...i feel lucky sometime. At least i still can live like normal or even better. The first mindset after come out from surgery room is telling myself that must love myself more & more. Appreciate what i had now and love the people surround me...love the life...becoz it only ONCE. Dear friends...be stronger, everyone can do better and do love urself more. I Love U Guys =)

 Name Tag...haha

 After Surgey...cannot recover well have to relied on this

My First meal after surgery (the next day morning)...Im super hungry

 Thanks my dear colleagues for the gifts...i love u all :)

My H3aRt : 2012...

It's been really long time i didnt updated my blog. So sorry to the one who had followed my blog. So, let's has a simple summary about what i had up to lately. A new year is reached, im still working in a same company. For my study, now is the time to rush for the final project. I haven't decided what topic i should write yet and have no idea with how to do that as well. Actually, i feel quite helpless about this matter, but i know only myself can solve it.

Regard my relationship, im really failed again. I am over confident sometime and it caused to i lost him. I thought he wont leave me until i choose to leave him. But it was totally opposite with what i had thought. It happend too suddenly and i was confused.It's just like a joke to me...i hope it was too. However,it was truly happened.  I feel sorry to him actually, during the time with him i never treat him better. Indeed, i am over self-defence and selfishness. I don't want commit to a serious relationship with him, because i thought there has better. I never realized how much i like him and use to depend on him. Yes, i admitted im regret with what i had done to him but it was too late. He wont turn back again and i will not waiting at the same place too. I never know that, i could be so hurt and tears out when he confess to me that he love someone else.

"It's Okie"...I can handle it better.This is what i told myself when facing him...