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13th March 2012     Wednesday

Im juz very pissed off all the sudden. Emm...why??? Actually just becoz a very very small matter which make me feel unfair and impatient. 

I was very tired today, i had a quick meal and hoped to lay on bed afterward. But, my mum was calling me to clean the dishes due to she want to watching the TV. I DON'T WANT...because supposed my brother to clean it since he was the last one to dine. Why i must waiting him until he finished the meal and clean for him?? What the helll..im not his maid. So, i asking my brother to clean it and he was telling me that he dont want becoz it was too many plates to wash. But my mum was pampering him and asked him to leave it. What the XXXX...i was really pissed on this. Fine, i go to wash the plates then from my little bit kindness. But i just feel unhappy with that...

Sometime, i know my mum want me to be good and manner girl and i admitted im really bad in temper or even worse..but i just cannot control myself. So...i just express my feeling here to make me feel better. It is work so far =) Previously, i always telling him about my feeling...but now...left the blog to becoming my soul mate. Anyway, it is quite fresh and interesting...i hope i will be use to it from now onwards...

Muacks...love u all ❤

My Operation Day

24th Feb 2012   Friday

On d way going Hospital (Smile)

Another operation for me...this is the 3rd times ady. Emm...nervous?? haha..i can surely tell u, u will definetely nervous no matter how many times u experienced before. LOL

This time my operation took about 4 hours plus, but feel much better as compare with the first time. Dunno why...maybe becoz of the lengzai doctor haha...(Just Kidding). It's quite scary when laying on the bed and waiting for anaesthesia. None one can understand my feeling beside me...i couldn't tell my parent and anyone else. This is how i getting stronger...

I don't feel pity on myself...i feel lucky sometime. At least i still can live like normal or even better. The first mindset after come out from surgery room is telling myself that must love myself more & more. Appreciate what i had now and love the people surround me...love the life...becoz it only ONCE. Dear friends...be stronger, everyone can do better and do love urself more. I Love U Guys =)

 Name Tag...haha

 After Surgey...cannot recover well have to relied on this

My First meal after surgery (the next day morning)...Im super hungry

 Thanks my dear colleagues for the gifts...i love u all :)

My H3aRt : 2012...

It's been really long time i didnt updated my blog. So sorry to the one who had followed my blog. So, let's has a simple summary about what i had up to lately. A new year is reached, im still working in a same company. For my study, now is the time to rush for the final project. I haven't decided what topic i should write yet and have no idea with how to do that as well. Actually, i feel quite helpless about this matter, but i know only myself can solve it.

Regard my relationship, im really failed again. I am over confident sometime and it caused to i lost him. I thought he wont leave me until i choose to leave him. But it was totally opposite with what i had thought. It happend too suddenly and i was confused.It's just like a joke to me...i hope it was too. However,it was truly happened.  I feel sorry to him actually, during the time with him i never treat him better. Indeed, i am over self-defence and selfishness. I don't want commit to a serious relationship with him, because i thought there has better. I never realized how much i like him and use to depend on him. Yes, i admitted im regret with what i had done to him but it was too late. He wont turn back again and i will not waiting at the same place too. I never know that, i could be so hurt and tears out when he confess to me that he love someone else.

"It's Okie"...I can handle it better.This is what i told myself when facing him...

My H3aRt : Thanks & Sorry...

10th April 2011 SUNDAY

Few month ago..there were lot of thing happened between me & my friends. I don't know is there any misunderstand or even someone purposely to did so. But there is lot of question mark in my heart. I very clear that , there is useless to talk abt this again...what past ady past & i don't wish to mentioned it repeating. Time to stop all the childish behavior.

First of all, i know u still following my blog & update with me. I want to apologized with what i had did to you before, even though i must deny that not all my fault but there sure must someone to sacrificed maybe. I really don't wish such kind of thing keep repeating & struggling each others. Because i know u still concern me...if u still sincere like before and forgive. I hope you understand, i am not pointing the fault to anyone...just i wish to let go. I should not too trust anyone & believe with what i heard from. I am fell into an INVISIBLE TRAP. I should not involved all the thing. Because everyone got their freedom to do whatever they want. Just like what u said...i got no right to judge u if i don't understand u well.

I am not regretted with what i had done before, at least i gained a lesson from this case. I know we won't good like before again...but i hope u can forgive & let go all the thing as well. Let's all the thing back to normal. Last, I hope you're happiness...and thank you.

My H3aRt : ♥♥♥

2nd April 2011 Saturday

Recently, i do try hard to make some changes in my life. However, till today i just found actually it was unchanged still. what happened is already happened, and time won't go backward. Life is hard to making changes isn't it?? Can anyone tell me the answer?? No doubt...I'm confusing.

The good way to comforting myself is "lying". That's what i realized. God...hv u be with me?? i am no that strong as what others think actually. I am just a simple girl even though i am acting stronger always. I need someone to hear me & understand me too. But till now no one can give me to rely beside my family. Independent is good...but too independent making me feel loneliness.

Heavy workload, non stop classes and hanging out...all the thing still can't satisfy myself still. Yeap...i should admit it...i am that useless & over emotion sometimes. God...can u hear me?? People told me when u lost something sure will gain something back. So, what i gain from the friendship i lost?? God will only know maybe...

Unforgettable February Life...

16th March 2011 Wednesday

It's been really long long long time i didn't updated my blog ady. Very 3asy...i am just kinda busy & LAZY haha >.<"!! Let has a summary about my recent life. Well, since last time i were declared all the thing in my blog. Finally i got a conclusion, and that's it i lost one of best friend. From tat case i did learned something. Ppl are always SELFISH. They know how to say how to pretend and even know how to blind, but just want to protect theirself. haha...sound kinda funny right? But that's fact and i were really tired to believe anyone again. Lastly, i choose to silent & leave it. I dun feel want to explain anything again...and it is useless & pointless. I did really fed up... and i apologized with what i had done wrong. Although it was quite emo when the time i spent at KL..but it was lot of fun still ^_^!! Especially those yummy foods, seriously i am weak on "Anti foods" ...haha but i did enjoy lot ^_^
Let share some pics here....cheers ^_^

This was my 1st meal after ended the meeting at Putrajaya ^^

Finally i went t-Bowl at Sungai Wang, there is really creative design...Love It^^

My laopo & 3e Tat...they are always funny haha ^^

The Next day i went to Sunway Pyramid & had our dinner @ Sushi King =)

No doubt i am promoting the Green Tea haha >.<" Does both of them look alike?? haha....

Went to my favorite place where @ Jln Ipoh to grabbed some dim sum as my supper ^^

Yumcha with all my dear friends at Steven Corner...Honey with M3. Thx q for sharing all ur thing to me...i will always by ur side whenever u need me ^^

Took brunch with Mr Bryan @ Georgetown..seriously i miss the Choc Soya T.T"

High T3a @ The Garden Cafe, seriously i love high tea muchie coz it was really relax.

Korean Food @ Desa Park City


Lastly, although is lot of sadness happened, but i will still looking forward till the day i really give up all the hopes in my lif3. I believe 3verything gonna be alright & Ok...That's how i comforting myself always. Stay strong...Cheers ^_^

★ 10.10.10...Ew3N's Big DAy ★

10.10.10 SUNDAY

ANother matter which i need to highlight during this month was my SISTA YI WEN get married la ^^!! She was the 1st to married among 5 of us. We knew each other since primary school until today. Was really happy that u had already found ur Mr Right & could married with him. Have nothing to give u...but juz like that song we sang for u...we're ur "嫁妆"...no matter where u be we will always by ur side when u need us.
SISTA FOREVER。。。

"Morning Highlight"

During Dinner...

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Here some their wedding 4tor which may share with u all ^^

虽然近几年我们姐妹之间都会有些误会与争执，但我希望有一天大家都能抛去过去的误会，回到和小学一样。在此祝福你在新的起跑点能一直幸福到永远。。。